Identification Hindrance

We spend so much time of our adult lives trying to understand things within us and the world surrounding us. We put our effort into this understanding, into the aspects and ways that things become known to us. We identify what makes us feel good, bad or may even leave us indifferent. In this process we seem to mature somehow, as the limitations or our being become more perceptible rather than the things themselves known.

We learn to make love and to know our body and that of our lover. We explore pleasure and get carried by it. We learn to let go and how to search and reach that moment we can let go.

We identify every corner of our life.

Perhaps in the hope of solving (or at least coming to terms) with that great vastness of possibility and dream and hope and fear that riddled us so completely when we were so much younger. A time that often seems further and further away from our grasp.

And, I believe that, in some measure we do achieve this.

We have a clearer picture of love, life, friendship, pain, loss, hope, exultation, peace, compassion. At each moment we become more sure of who we are - or perhaps that we simply are, here.

And yet there is perhaps a longing.

A longing that seems to be for those days of questioning and pondering.

But perhaps it is not a longing for the time but rather for the sensations of that time.

Perhaps what we miss is not the being young but rather the open way with which we experienced reality around and within us. A reality without clearly defined boundaries is a vaster reality than one with landscape references.

In short it is our knowledge of life that ends up limiting our appreciation of it. Because we know we circumvent our experience.

We spend our lives figuring things out because of that initial, overwhelming, utterly clear presence of the unknown everywhere.

And, yet, after the passing of time, we find ourselves missing precisely that innate sense of freedom and possibility that that childish innocence gave us. Our identification of our experiences ultimately becomes the very hindrance towards our experiencing of life itself.

To me this is the natural process. Something we should not try to avoid nor reinforce. It is simply we can acknowledge and use.

To me the next step is to create a mode of being where we can simultaneously travel in these seemingly opposite directions: towards totality and towards precision. The infinite and the infinitesimal. Ie, reaching the full blown texture of life at each single gulp of awareness.

Ultimately Identification stops being a Hindrance. It is simply a consequence. One that can help us come full circle, in an open spiral, and recapture our essence with the greater magnitude of maturity.

Peace.